Singalong Junk

I would LOVE for my husband and daughter to play this song for me sometime:

We bought this CD 4 years ago when we were in NY trying to adopt a sister for Emi. We named the baby girl "McCartney" and when we brought her back home we were surprised to see the cover of our new CD and the inside flap photo. We planned to get a picture of Scott (with his beard that he'd grown while we were in NY) and the baby for the birth announcements, but the baby ended up going back to NY with her birth father.

Tribute to John

This morning Emi (who has had the Beatles in her life all of her life) was asking Scott about going to see the Beatles sometime. This is because we had the Concert for Bangladesh playing while we cleaned house. Scott told her that two of the Beatles were dead and she started asking about how they died. He explained that George got sick and died and that John was shot. She asked who shot him, his name and she even wanted to see a picture of him (which Scott showed her in one of his Beatles books).

He thought that after he answered her questions, that would be it, but a few minutes later she started crying. I heard her howling from the kitchen and she was so upset. He filled me in on what transpired and I told him that even though John's been dead all of these years, she's JUST finding out. I completely understand her sadness & emotion.

She kept going over to his picture on the wall saying "John, you were my favorite Beatle" with tears streaming down her face. I went around her room with her and showed her how many things of John's she had, that he had originally doodled for his son (like her rug, lamp, book ends, rhino plush animal, etc) but she was upset for a while. I got her to draw a picture for John to get out her sadness. I know that kiddos are curious about death at this age, but I was surprised to see her so upset about someone she's never met, but then again, it is a Beatle! For the record, Paul is her 2nd fave.....

Maybe I'm Amazed

This morning Emi and I took Mickey and her mom to the airport and said our "goodbyes". It was a very difficult thing to do, but we never tried to talk her out of her decision. We never wanted to cause any pain for her and I think she understood that. We had a nice time with her and the baby here this week and she seemed to take to caring for the baby with ease. We had some really nice talks and last night she let the baby sleep in our bed with us. Both girls slept in between us. McCartney had some really sweet smiles for us on this last day.

Emi and I went to the Waffle House after we left the airport to have some quality time with just us. She seemed happy to have me to herself again. She asked me if I was sad and I told her I was....that I missed the baby. On the way home we were stopped at a redlight and "Maybe I'm Amazed" (Paul McCartney) came on the radio. It really hit home....

Tonight when I asked Emi if she missed the baby, she said "no". She then said "I miss no one." and a few seconds later said "I miss mommy and daddy". We are so thankful for our precious Emi. I can't imagine going through this without her.